Why me?

Every time every one keeps shouting on me. I don't know whether their reasons are valid or not, but I guess they are valid every time because it's always my fault.

There are many incidents till now where I am doing or performing some usual things and some outsider shouts on me and make me do the reverse of it.

Many students in college used to sit on the wall in the corridor, when I tried to sit on the same wall; I was noticed by some or the other lecturer and no doubt he/she started shouting .

Whenever me and my friends did any mischief in any of the lecture, lecturer noticed only me, he/she thinks I am the only culprit and throws me out of the class or asks me to come and meet him/her in the staff room(Specially my OOPS lecturer).

Last day of my college, we were deciding the place for our party after the paper in the parking; obviously no other students were there but still we thought it doesn't matter, while returning home from that parking lot, the boy in the parking lot shouted on me - 'Kyu paper parking me dete ho kya?,'

When we went for the party, there was no place in the parking of the restaurant, so like every one else we decided to park our vehicle in front of the shop nearby, but again on no one else the guard of that shop shouted on me .

Yesterday, when I was standing along with my friends in front of her house, but we were standing on the main road, two policemen came and started shouting – 'Kitane time se khade ho, ye kya khade rehne ki jagah hai kya, chalo nikalo'.

Once, we went to Archies showroom, again my mistake I took my bag inside, the worker in the shop showed his generosity and asked me to give my bag to him till we were in the shop, I agreed, but while returning home I forgot to take my bag and I realized it after 2 hours. When I went there after 2 hours the owner of the shop was standing on the door along with my bag in his hand, started shouting when he noticed me and gave me lecture for nearly 15-20 minutes continuously.

Few days back I went in one of the restaurant, ordered for the dish and was sitting with the chair little tilted in front, the waiter shouted on me –'sidhe baitho madam chair tut jayegi'. (I don't think so that the infrastructure of that restaurant was that good, even a little bend of chair will matter them a lot).

In college every student was allotted the places according to there roll numbers, mine was beside a fat, black, Stinky boy , It may sound little stupid but he was totally unadorable. So, I used to exchange my place with one roll number before me. Many other students were changing place, but still one of our fat, pig-like lecturer always shouted on only me.

I guess these incidents are enough right now because the list is long and unending.

For all the reasons I keep shouting again on myself - 'Why me only?'

My Birth-right

Sleeping is my birth-right. I just love sleeping .

I know its one of the stupidest thing ever, but what to do, I love doing stupid things .

I usually get up late in the morning and get late for most of the time for my college.

According to me afternoons are meant for sleeping only. If you are not sleeping in the afternoon then you are wasting your time .

Sleeping helps you release all you tension, It helps you in relaxing your body and soul etc. these are all mythological things, so they are only for you . And for me sleeping is just one of my hobbies .

Whenever I sleep, I get into 'DREAMLAND'. It's my favorite place .

If I don't have anything to do I just prefer sleeping and when I had many things to do still I prefer sleeping . I even slept for most of the times during my exams; I will even sleep if I get chance while writing papers.

I am going to bed now, so, Good Night and wish me Sweet Dreams.

'Sleeping is my birth-right and I shall have it'.

I am not PERFECT

'Nobody is Perfect, I am Nobody'. What the heck is this

Every time, everyone keeps saying this. Every one is interested in proving themself 'Perfect'. But I realized as if everyone is 'Perfect' except ME .

I am not perfect at all; it's not the matter for any one or for any body . It's only within me. I never woke up in time, I never sleep on time and I never do anything properly or rather perfectly.

There are many more things which I never did perfectly. Many people or girls/boys at my age act perfectly and so I guess they are too great according to there family members, only because they do everything perfectly.

There are few more things which I would like to mention of my imperfect attitude,

I never keep any of my things properly,

I often make little little mistakes while writing or speaking

I never have my lunch or dinner on time and

I keep sleeping all the time,

to lazy for performing any household's works,

My mom keeps shouting after me for these few things all the time . That's true because moms are really great.

(Most important I am not even getting perfect theme for my blog )

But even after many consequences I don't want to be PERFECT in my life.

I never thought I should be perfect, because I am enjoying my IMPERFECTIONESS.

IMPERFECTIONESS ROCKS !!!!!

Really, try it out, its more interesting than that boring time-to-time type life.

FEELINGS

It really difficult to express feeling especially for me.

Its difficult when you can't express them easily.

Difficulty level increases when its really important to express them.

Its even more difficult when you are unable to show it.

Much more difficult when you cant put them into words.

GO GOA ! ! !

I want to go GOA this summer. Don't know the reason why I choose GOA only, but I want to go there anyhow after my exams .

I went there 11 years back , when I was in 2^nd class I guess. At the age of 7, I was totally unaware of the surroundings, but was still very much interested in going to some place called 'GOA' . I went with my whole family. I cant remember much of it but can recall few things whenever I see the photographs.

We enjoyed a lot there, but me and my brother felt very depressed now because we wore our 'Bata Sleepers' with white and blue combination . Whenever we see our Goa photographs we laugh uncontrollably for about 15-20 minutes continuously.

Most of my family members laugh on me after seeing that photographs because my front 2 teeth's were broken but was still giving a broad smile in every photograph .

This time I want to go GOA once again and refresh all my memories. As said earlier I don't know why I want to go GOA only, I went many places except GOA and even none of my family members live there. But still want to go there this time. I am very much desperate to go there. I can't express my zest because I am very bad in expressing myself .

I hope I can go there with my friend/friends; it's next to impossible right now . But still never loose hopes I will definitely go there some day with my friends .

I want to go GOA this summer, I don't know with whom, I don't know when and I don't even know for what , but want to go there.

GO GOA ! ! !

Emotionless!

From few days I am realizing as if I am emotionless . I never felt emotional for any damn emotional things. It can be better said as if I am feeling-less. I didn't felt anything while going away alone from my home for few days or on the first day of a new college/class or the last day of college or at the time of the exams or at the time of the results or the day when I was having my birthday etc.

I am not talking anything about the expressions or the intense feeling. It is just a small feeling or we can call it as 'butterflies in the stomach'. I use to have some feeling earlier like every one had, but now-a-days I am feeling nothing about anything, no butterflies in my stomach .

It's not even like the thing that I don't want to show it only because I want to show myself strong, confident and all that. Why will I hide my feeling? I would definitely show it, express it if I had it.

It is as if I am becoming harsh these days . No emotions, no feelings. I know it's not a good indication of normal human being, but its okay with me. I am happy with it (even the feeling of happiness was not original, I convinced myself in being happy with it )

But what is the point in crying when you get emotional or enjoying or laughing when you are happy.

"Cry when you felt like crying and laugh when you felt like laughing"

Why to wait for anything to happen which will make you happy or emotional.

So, BE HAPPY AND ENJOY LIFE .